The Solzhenitsyn Obituary, posted below, resonates with me as I sit at my office desk on a Saturday, preparing for a long day's work.
Again I work for something that doesnt give me hope. Again I wrestle with the burdens of colluding with mgmt toward my failure. Again, I calculate the outcome of long hours and sloppy personal finances.
The stuggle for humanity..hmmmm. What I am I struggling for? Survival, I guess. Seems silly for a family that makes in excess of $300k to struggle for that. Since life is about struggle, in a lot of ways, it would seem that I have a choice over what to struggle for. I could struggle for crap. I could struggle for ..... uh,
I could struggle for .....?
Something other than crap?
Lame.
If Enlightenment is seeing and noticing and learning from that.Then I need to get started. Meditation is the first step toward understanding what I should be shooting for.
Cerebrality is not the only way. Going forward relying solely on that self-debate is just theatre.
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