weak pillars

I ran my observations on the six pillars past my wife, who reminded me that I should have 'being an awesome dad and husband.'

It hurt deeply b/c I am neither and b/c I should want those things but dont see them as a purpose. I see them as a responsiblity, but I see a purpose as something even higher - so that it would allow me to set a good example.

But I AM also selfish and stuck in my head - not good family skills.