Up against it

This is the end of the "Research Phase" of understanding my limitations. I clearly know why I have been stuck in "middle-age", middle-class, middle management" I know how I can "grow into a life inspired."

Yes, I am destined for greatness, not because I am special, but because I am human. And, I have come to think that all humans are destined for inspired greatness, as defined by great leaps in development and great accomplishments for others.

This is the end of thinking that I dont need to take full responsibility for my life or that I can "get away with" displaying the appearance of success or responsibility.

My next phase is DOING. Following through with the very difficult and awkward role of growing into each area of responsibility in my life.

I dont want to get too hung up on this, but 21 years ago, I started something called 1.1.90. It was a set of completely unrealistic goals. I failed and I abandoned what felt like a cool adventure to rebuild "me".

and so now I have to force myself both to move aggressively and move small.

The next real chapter of my life is upon me.

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