As we grapple with my oldest daughters kindergarten performance and dueling potentials for moving forward or being held back I think about all that has happened in the past 9 months since she started school and the family collectively started the new routine.
I started a new job in October. I began working out almost every day, which gave me a lot more energy. My wife began working from home on most days. And as our girls became more inculcated into their respective schools the whole family took on a new focus. I think that so many significant changes have occurred we have not yet fully realized how transitional this time period really is.
One year ago we were living in the old house, wondering about the future feeling very ready to move on. Today, we are engrossed with many more details of our lives and it feels like there is so much to do. Gradually I am developing a new plan for a 2014 MVVA. There is so much to take on and take to the next level. I do notice and I'm a little concerned that my energy level and focus for ticklee in the last Mon 6 weeks has dropped not substantially enough to be concerned but noticeably. Several of the initiatives that I have Ben conducting for some months or planning most recently have Ben poorly administered or not at all. I look at that performance really a perspective of a 12 month timeline and that this is just the beginning where everything is getting sorted out.
However, my energy level is not what it used to be a few months ago and it may take a lot longer to get in gear. Part of what created this change was our week away in Jamaica and the other part has surely been the very high pollen count this spring which has wiped me out. 3rd issue is acknowledging that I need more than five or six hours of sleep - not for work performance or executional performance reasons - but for muscle growth.
The other concern I have is that I may need to increase my ADHD med dosage. I think that its effectiveness may be decreasing slightly. That is concerning because it may not happen from my current doctor. She is understandably very conservative. and in May and it is something that we all knew would happen sooner or later.
So. All these considerations and fluctuations in our lives have created a major impact and cause for stresses in the Family.
To exacerbate matters just a little bit more, my wife lives with great concern about her ability to keep her job as her company faces substantial layoffs.
So our little organization is being stress-tested all the time and as I was saying, my oldest daughter is being considered for a couple of major decision and she is surely feeling stressed out as well.
I think it's important to us, in addition to our respective goals and responsibilities, to come together more strongly and do things that are unique to our family.
In particular, we do not have yet activities that allow us to decompress and reconnect and I think such activities would be extremely useful. Being able to destress in the presence or proximity of other family members could be a q as for now I have powerful bonding experience .
All in all springtime appears to be a time of great change there is so much to consider and so much to implement quickly. As for now I have as for now I can say that I am in the planning process cell each phaze or aspect of my M the VA is in varying degrees of completion . As well given my above statement it is clear that whatever relationships plan I end up developing should include a great deal of thought about our family relationships. As of now I think I and my wife tend to think about relationships from a personal perspective we tend to look at how one daughter is doing or how 1 parent is doing vs another but I don't think we are thinking about the family unit as an entity that needs its own support and goals.
Recently I went to the wake of a cousin. The family members were so gracious and strong and positive and warm in the face of a shockingly tragic event. This behavior was consistent with all the other ways they behave when I see them. My sister has cautioned me in the past that their behavior is genuine but also somewhat manufactured for the sake of making a good impression. Yet they have indeed made an impression perhaps an indelible 1 on myself and my wife who is also in attendance I think we look at what happened that horrible tragedy and we said to ourselves that's the way we want to act or behave .
And so there is another substantial initiative to add to the pile and I realize.
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