Update From The Coach's Call

I had a very interesting call with my executive coach. They're all interesting, actually.

In this call, he was really focused on encouraging me, but at the same time, challenged my comments to make sure I was indeed on track and not kidding myself.

He also continued to prompt me to be and remain uncertain and not necessarily right – or righteous. Not to be content, or to seek happiness, necessarily. Be aware of the illusions how much green can sound Turquoise, for example.

As a result of the call, and our final comments about my marriage, I began to reflect on my perspectives on love. For the last several years, I've blocked myself from love. It's like my mantra has been 'they dont care about you; don't care about them.'

It's been painful to believe that, and while I still do on many levels, intellectualy i realize that embracing that lie has been very costly to my career and to my personal life. By being so blocked, I avoided - or turned away - the very force that could have helped me to realize more in my life. More love, more accomplishments, more connectedness to the Supreme...

It's hard to define this stuff. I find myself using old-fashioned language that doesnt quite fit. In the way that Horseless Carriage doesnt quite fit for Infinity G35. Yet, they're both accurate.

I just keep exposing myself to things (WEI, Wikinomics, World Business Academy, etc) to gain insights and inspiration. As a result, I feel myself growing spiritually ( which i define as experiencing God through connections with others) and I also feel a sense of awe at how vast and long the paths that await me.