Surrender

Here’s a quick update….

I started looking at the attachments I cling to in my marriage – wanting things that aren’t evidently realistic. Then, I sought similar patterns in my friendships and family relationships – looking for beliefs and behaviors that don’t serve my path toward enlightenment, nor my more immediate interests.

I think I treat my friendships somewhat inauthentically. I don’t think I’m very present to who these people are, or what they think of themselves, me, or the world around us.


For a long time, I think I compromised my future, to some degree, by continuing to embrace the IDEA of who my wife is, over being awake and aware to her actual attitudes and treatment of me.

I make the same decisions again and again - I chose what’s in my imagination over what’s actually going on and try to make that reality, instead of being a witness to reality and taking responsible action.

Then, it hit me this morning, even more clearly. I’m coddling my ego. I’m not being humble and authentic.

So, I have a few more observations/reasons to surrender. It’s like my only real choice. . .