My next big thing

I'm still ruminating on how to get to 'the next level'.

It takes a bunch of things, discipline, focus bla bla bla. It also takes confronting things that are fuzzy and scary.

A friend mentioned the basic components of our 'selves' the ego, id and Super Ego. I looked up how those were described and I realize that I haven't fully understood the language I was using - and perhaps that extends to the spiritual work and associations I've had.

Regardless, it's intersting to me that it seems as though life's impulses stem from the Id, a passionate and gratification-seeking identity. The ego is there to rationalize the Id's impulses and the Super-ego over-rides the whole business with morality and ethics. Most of this is happening on a sub-concious level.

maybe enlightenment is the relm of the Super Ego?

whatever.

My real issue is with my Id. According to some random research, i need stronger ego boundaries. That makes a lot of sense to me, b/c I consistently indulge in things that make me want to escape.