Friends

Finding friends and keeping them has been difficult for my whole life.

I now realize that my perspectives have biased my judgement and allowed me to essentially find others who want to bond quickly, but who then get defensive/controlling/ needy/ whatever... I can see that pattern in my jobs also. For years I chose work environments based on my need to quickly get work. Then, a few weeks in, i go from the darling new hire to the guy that just doestn get it.

I've experienced this volitile oscillation over and over again.

Trouble is, I literally didnt learn how to make friends when I was a kid. I had no role models for this. I have to learn about this from scratch.

It's funny how I often feel like a tourist to this world...