New priorities

Its been several weeks since the end of my company. I've been playing with this or that idea for this or that venture.

I think I'm settled down to one idea that helps me embrace my values and so far, it presents the right combination of things to make us (Sean and I) want to move ever forward.

Without the usual things to define me - work and it's associated anxieties, I now wonder what I've given myself now that I have it.

I've been timid about reaching out and grabbing the new vision of myself. The once again handsome me, the gregarious and worldy-wise me, the principled me, the fun friend , the great Dad , the great husband .

The energized me.

Not the imprisoned me, who is selfish and needy and an emotional black hole; who is soft and drained and not living very much at all.

I'd like to think the last few months has been my period of transition from a job and a life that did not really suit what I can become in this life. I am closer than I've ever been to being self sufficient and surprising to my early vision, I am more connected an open than ever.

Henry David Thoreau supposedly said, "None are so old as those who have outlived enthusiasm." and for a several years, I was very very old. The upcoming last part of my life is so open to getting better