Where My Motivation and Focus Come From

I've known for a while now that I have to essentially get "backed into" doing something in order for me to do it. That means having a great deal at risk if I fail to follow though - and then rushing in a panic at the last minute. It creates a TON of stress for me and all involved, including my family.

My friend Eugene told me that he operates this same way, (he has ADD) but on some level he knows it and works with it. He's like a surfer waiting for the stress wave so he can do his thing. That's not to say he doesn't still get stressed and stress everyone else out too.

Basically at this point, there seems to be a solution and it's called Adderall and I want it right now. I want my brain working for me not against me.

Until then, I am working with old equipment...