confronting the obvious

I cannot tell you how many hours and how many years I've been fantasizing about being comforted by some hotty who'll really 'get' me and want to fuck my brains out frequently and regularly.

I know that I'm not alone, but I also know that this behavior is not healthy. It creates frustrations and weird attachments and non-relevant views on the world around me.

BUT, i really do want to have sex and physical intimacy, which isnt out of the question since i'm fucking married and all. So, I'm sitting on the john, and I'm like, wtf..

I sent this note to my wife:



hi

I've been thinking that it really is kind of ridiculous that we dont have any sex any more. It feels terrible to have a wife that is so UNinto me, physically and romantically.

I know you love me, and i really appreciate your support - especially now, when things are tough at work. I realize you are making sacrifices and I really appreciate that. Let me remind you that the sacrifices you make in this regard, however, really come back to you also. So, this period is really a set of sacrifices we're both making.

Since we're going to be together for the next several decades, it makes sense to get to the bottom of this now. Honestly it drives me crazy and creates a lot of negative feelings, which i spend a lot of energy trying to manage and keep from you.

I cannot believe that you are intentionally asking me to accept that we dont have a love life. And, i cant keep going months and months with out physcial contact. that's insane.