The Weight of Living

There will always be Need.

Needing posessions. Needing external emotional support. Needing physical gratification.

Denying my needs is as naive as indulging in them.

I've been occilating for years between the twin time-wasters of denying and indulging. Doing so has stalled my enlightenment.

Noticing these two, and being patient with what I notice, is going to be really important. I'll chronicle my observations going forward, but right away, I can see that i use my ego to wrestle with life's challenges v. observing them and learning from them.

I find myself being drawn into wanting to meditate. That's a first.