My ego, always wanting to get its way, is all about wanting to be angry, revengeful, etc. Put it this way, I'm pissed that my wife wont sleep with me and be affectionate with me. I'm scared that my business wont succeed, and I'm basically angry at myself and the world for being in a situation where I'm beat-down by lack of sleep, stress, money worries, and zero affection.
How could I have done this to myself??
That could be a wonderful rabbit hole of dispair, etc., so I've been meditating as much as possible today. I'm trying to open myself up to that positive energy to move forward. And, I love the idea of being the change I want to see in the world - or in this case, myself.
Off to work out!
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