The straight and narrow

When I think of what it takes to lose weight(high protein, healthy diet + frequent exercise), or what it takes to survive in my loveless, sexless marriage (focusing on what I can do, not what I can get), or what it takes to make my business grow (excellent marketing strategies, well executed with little overhead), or what it takes to be a good parent right now (spend quality time focusing only on them), I think that my youth is over.

I just want to continue being impulsive and self-indulgent. I keep trying to work in those behaviors here and there, but it's so obvious: whenever I depart from the straight and narrow, I work against the very goals to which I aspire.

As much kudos I should give myself over the progress I've made in recipe-writing, I am slowly coming to the realization that I need to make a deep and life-long commitment. I have all the information I need. I've done all the A/B testing there is to do. I just need to focus my ego on what matters more. I need to essentially "break up" with my indulgent behavior.

I just need to grow up.

This whole blog isn't as much about a pursuit of greatness as it is a bitter dialog between my selfish impulses and my greater ambitions.