It's not working...yet?

For a few weeks now, I've been inputing with 1's and 0's my ability to complete tasks that help me embrace my new priorities (me as a resource; family/relationships; career of helping via marketing)

It's a great thing, i have to say. I can see where I'm missing up, waaay before I need to deal with a crisis.

However, it's really a bummer to see that I've never gotten above an average of 50% mark in my "Me" category while I hit nearly 80% -  90% regularly in "Relationship" and "Career." Before I revisited and refined my Me category, I was averaging about 40%.

That's bad. And, it underscores how self-indulgent I am that I cannot sacrifice a little sleep to do things that will help my family, help me become more grounded, and help me get more traction on my job hunt. Granted, I've had house hunting/selling stuff to deal with - more on that later - but it's no real excuse.

I think there might be some good reasons for this, probably because I:

1. have consistently low energy, here's why... maybe:
1. poor sleep patterns. I wake up tired a lot even though I sleep deeply
2. I dont know how to pace myself  - I charge at everything with full gusto
3. sugar/caffeine. big highs, big lows
4. low veggie count?
5. fewer than 5 hrs of exercise per week
6. I have big swings in emotion, which can be exhausting
2. am probably taking on too much with an attempted radical departure from my formerly unconscious approach
3. dont have any outside reinforcement or support, beyond therapy.  I need more of a daily support I think.
4. have never done anything like this and am actually designing it a bit as I go, so my expectations are a bit up in the air.
5. am a narcissistic bastard 

The thing is, this is obviously very good, but it's revealing all sorts of issues.

I've decided to kill my running average at the bottom to help reinforce the proper priorities. Prior to that, I could do 50% in ME and 100% in Relationships and 50% in Career, and it would give a pretty good aggregate average of 67%, which is pretty misleading...