JUNE UPDATE [SO FAR]

1. I cant really be effective by internalizing the Daily Drill, and I can't really just do the Daily Drill without meaningful objectives. The MVVA should be the top priority.
2. I dont think I've been very aggressive about planning win-win scenarios when it comes to setting goals. For example, I dont ask - how can I get this need filled or this objective reached by also helping out someone else. Or, I could more consistently ask myself the opposite: how can my needs or objectives be a way for someone else to meet their needs or objectives? I've been so eager to prove that I am effective in a sort of rebellious way, that I often miss out on things like meeting etiquette or effectiveness best-practices. As a result, I can see how obvious tug-of-war type conflicts and lost opportunities have hurt me. 
3. The MVVA is a big project; it's going to probably take the entire year [thru until 5/13] to get it fully fleshed out. Naturally most of it will be done in the next few weeks/months. It needs to be a foundation, like a platform, so I can be nimble but still stay focused on the 5/13 objectives. It shouldn't be a rigid engineering plan. 
4. It's ok to prioritize the MVVA and it's ok to fail in the beginning. Like I said; it's a big deal, so knowing what's feasible and what isn't takes experiential learning. 
5. I've learned that it's really all about energy and focus. My two big killers of that combination are lack of veggies [my juicer getting fixed is a top priority!]; and getting emotionally distracted from things like my wounded marriage and other disappointments. 
6. The Daily Drill is an excellent tool, but not alone. It's simply a prompt to ensure I'm crossing off to-dos on my PERSPIPS lists. Therefore, it has to be reinforce the plan - which isnt complete. It can reinforce short-term PERSPIPS stuff, which is probably the best tack to take, given the above. 
7. I have emotional hang-ups about myself, sex, my self image, being valued - or not - by people in my life. I shouldn't accept hang-ups simply to cope with whatever situation. I want to deal with them in a more honest and productive way. 
8. Working out is all about the high heart rate and that happens when I eat right, take my meds/veggies, and use my more developed muscles. My legs, for example are pretty weak, so expecting that I can rely on them to get my heart rate up for long periods of time is not realistic. 
9. My biggest delays have been b/c I was oblivious to what is happening in the world and how to connect my value to that. I started off my job hunt with only what I wanted to do and sent out all the wrong messages. 
10. I need some great tools for very quickly identifying 'where the action is' at a high-level. I'm weak in understanding, "ok, what's going on here?"  on a variety of levels. For example, I never really understood the corporate environment at several employers. I didn't know how to read the marketplace/economic/social patterns when launching my agency. I pissed away 2-3 months in my job hunt, per the above. 

It would be easy to say June is/was a failure, but it's not. I'm still learning.