I am not the body

During the day, my thoughts wander a bit, as my job is no longer the deep, intellectual puzzle it used to be. I've climbed to a more harmoneous plateau, and, with things running much smoother, I'm not as freaked out and stressed out all the time.

so, I have a bit more brainwidth available. I find myself on wie.org a lot, and when I'm doing relatively brain-light tasks, like building a PowerPoint deck, I listen to the audio clips.

I poke around, and find the articles very intriguing. I keep returning to this one: http://www.wie.org/j22/ashrita.asp

As I was reading, I paused to write down some thoughts:

The way fear is like love, is that it's endless. Neither love or fear are necessarily rational - but for the choice we make to engage in them.

Fear : Love

Isolated : Open/Inspirational
Reactive : Visionary
Stuck : Fluid
"Me" : "us"
Angry : Compassionate

Fear is the enemy of love.

We become what we surrender to. I can surrender to the power of Love. I can choose that.

Update From The Coach's Call

I had a very interesting call with my executive coach. They're all interesting, actually.

In this call, he was really focused on encouraging me, but at the same time, challenged my comments to make sure I was indeed on track and not kidding myself.

He also continued to prompt me to be and remain uncertain and not necessarily right – or righteous. Not to be content, or to seek happiness, necessarily. Be aware of the illusions how much green can sound Turquoise, for example.

As a result of the call, and our final comments about my marriage, I began to reflect on my perspectives on love. For the last several years, I've blocked myself from love. It's like my mantra has been 'they dont care about you; don't care about them.'

It's been painful to believe that, and while I still do on many levels, intellectualy i realize that embracing that lie has been very costly to my career and to my personal life. By being so blocked, I avoided - or turned away - the very force that could have helped me to realize more in my life. More love, more accomplishments, more connectedness to the Supreme...

It's hard to define this stuff. I find myself using old-fashioned language that doesnt quite fit. In the way that Horseless Carriage doesnt quite fit for Infinity G35. Yet, they're both accurate.

I just keep exposing myself to things (WEI, Wikinomics, World Business Academy, etc) to gain insights and inspiration. As a result, I feel myself growing spiritually ( which i define as experiencing God through connections with others) and I also feel a sense of awe at how vast and long the paths that await me.