Juggling My needs

I think I see my needs as something that can be put off  - until they cant. Then, with the need for intimacy or letting loose or taking time for a workout at a peak, I am faced with needing to execute on something else entirely.

I short-circuit and pay the price.

I struggle with the daily drill, b/c on the one hand, it's a good way to be disciplined. But I think my whole context for it is to measure up and rise to others' expectations of me - versus feeding myself.