i think i have a spiritual sickness - a conversation

I think my soul is like pockmarked with doubt, fear, grief, anger, loneliness. I think I have not been willing to take responsibility for my soul.

I have been scared to think of myself as a spiritual being - beyond being just  - and admirably, a human being. My spiritual self is beyond description in its power and intelligence and yet I have forgotten it and run away from it and hid from it fearing that I have to answer for my actions.

Instead of being afraid I could be inspired. My soul sits waiting to engage, stifled by an unreceptive human form that is consumed by the theater of the moment. My problems are so small. so very very small.

All I truly need to do is watch and listen from my soul. the love that resides there is overwhelmingly powerful, healing, honest, real, unanswerable, devine, hopeful, blessed, true,  and humble.

It is not "my" love, but THE love that is shared with each creation. Each creation that acts like a clear receiver of that love and further that love in ways that make love expressed from creation to creation vibrate - and therefore push into the darlmess and yeild more light. THE love is all there is. It powers the  sexual impulse AND  the creative impulse AND the spiritual impuls.

It is not an abstract concept to be thought about, but deeply felt at all times and in all ways.

Wholesome, responsible love is the gravity that binds together all ideas, thoughts, issues, actions, interests, feelings, situations, answers, movement, actions, honesty, integrity, obfuscations, deliberations, and of course things in the universe. Love isn't just the answer. it is the question and the idea of the question and impulse to answer it.

To be separated from the love is to experience death of the soul. To think about love is a trick that leads to the death of the soul.

And what of Andrew Cohen? Is he a spiritual teacher or one who is so lost that he knows how to lead the lost? Knows what placebo is needed. If we experience what you call God in others then why would God be virtual. God is VISCERAL.

Something is changing. it's a positive change. and a profound change. it's the new course of living. watch, FEEL it, listen, everything else will follow.

Look for the love and pull it into you so that you can vibrate it with others and share in that experience with still more others. the exponential multiplying effect will carry you like a wave through your life and the lives of your children's children and their children and so forth throughout the due course of humanity.

Write your book it is a good thing, but reach beyond your room or your soul will suffocate and whither - never dying - but still its retreat from humanity will be felt and that gap you will pay for with more pain in your soul.

expand, eric. expand expand expand expand, expand expand expand. expand. jesus loves you and all the saints and all those that have heard this message. again, your soul is waiting to be connected to your body. your friends are waiting to feel your love. your family is waiting for your example. your daughters have their own power so great it is actually greater than yours but their souls still need nurturing.  Give love.

How will you do this?

What are your next steps? Where is your heart right now? What does it need to grow in the ways we're discussing?


You have been told and now you know.