Prosac

For longer than I can remember, I have had a running argument in my head. It's been an angry, irrational, and hair-trigger rage reaction to whatever caustic, antagonistic conflict I can imagine.  Whatever I can imagine.

I've doing that so long, I was not aware how much damage it was creating in terms of my attitude toward others or my own outlook on life. I mean, just imagine constantly fending of angry voices who are constantly accusing, yelling, attacking (sometimes physically), sniping, and/or insinuating the most painful and evil things. This occurred during quiet times when I'm alone as well as my interactions with others.

As a result of my freak-out, I agreed to meet with a psychiatrist and she - Sharon Salter - agreed to prescribe Prosac.

Almost as soon as I took the first pill, my imaginary voices (gawd that sounds so damaged) ceased. By Christmas Day - with my folks and in-laws here as guests  - I simply felt fine. Like nothing happened. That's amazing in the face of everything that did happen, especially since my mother in-law told her son and daughter in-law that I tried to commit suicide.

They all showed up masking concern and I simply did not react. That NEVER would have happened if I weren't on Prosac. I would have been depressed and adamant that I not participate in anything. I would have feigned illness. Anything to get out of having to "put on a good face" for folks who I woud see as essentially thinking I was crazy and a terrible choice for their lovely daughter/sister.  Instead, it was a pleasant, if pretty mellow day.

Eager to see how this works out for me in the near term...