Who Am I?

As I look at my past performance and try to uncover ways to be more motivated, more sure of things, and more effective, I also have to ask: who am I?

I have a lifetime of experience of morphing myself into this or that person, which has been very harmful, obviously. But, when left to my own devises, I relax into a kind of self indulgent haze.

I dont really know how to challenge this pattern, even though I have ideas. Let's just say it's something I'll bring up in therapy.