For Love of The Daily Drill

The Daily Drill should not be underestimated as my primary device for getting things done and optimizing my life.

Reality is because of my ADHD I will need solid structures such as the daily drill and other methodologies to keep myself on track in moving forward. It provides obvious way to remain accountable to my goals and promises as evidenced by the fact that most recently I wavered from it and paid the price in the form of not reading to my kids as consistently not engaging in a project at home not spending quality time with my wife and not having enough energy for the hi focus in fall through required for my work . I did find the last couple of weeks as a slump but it's clear to me after re engage in this week with the daily grill that my slump was simply fatigue resulting from not working out consistently not taking my supplements consistently and running out of medication and then getting overwhelmed by the build up of obligations and tasks that I wanted to accomplish.

This week by contrast I have much more energy and have made a lot of progress coming from behind as it were 2 catch up on everything on my plate.

The daily drill exists in contact with other tools and methodologies that I have not fully implemented. T they are: the process of executing simple projects, using my intellectual fan with for all around optimization, and creating A more crystal clear vision of who I want to become, or more accurately, who it is I would like how it is I would like to be heyv as a natural way of being. The daily grill is simply the program that insures I cover off on most of the items that will support my foundation and keep my relationships, career, health, and moral progress moving forward. It is the implementation for a strategy that is as yet not fully defined, as well as A plan that is incomplete.

The overall process of essentially repairing myself from a decades-long digression into indulgence and self centeredness has thus far simply been focused on cleaning up the obvious. My new plans for mai off 2014 essentially continue this approach of addressing the obvious. Naturally there is no problem with that. However, reality is I am NOT hopefully going to die On May 2014. There is a greater perspective that needs to be addressed which would cover my own development for the next 3 to 4 or so decades as well as v development of each of my family members and the family unit as a whole. There is so much to learn and there's so much to do.

If I were a fixer upper house, I would have good bones and a couple of rooms and outside features na liveable and perhaps Pleasant condition. But the attic and basement would be cluttered and unusable, the bedrooms would be a mess, the plumbing would be faulty, the floors and walls would be scarred peeling and in need of resurfacing, the roof would be okay and the yard would be okay and the paint job for the exterior would be okay and in certain. In certain circumstances the house would look really nice, perhaps in a snowstorm, or Twilight, but after some simple investigation, by anyone, it would be obvious that the house had fallen into some level of disrepair or lack of I'll keep for several years, . Visiting the fixer upper and visiting the neighbors house would reveal the stark difference is between what the fixer upper is and what it could be. And like that fixer upper house I think for a long time I revealed only my potential to folks who would you were convinced that I was going to achieve it. When you walk into a fixer upper and the homeowners talk about all the projects what they plan to do, and all the ways it's a plan to renovate an upgrade, its natural to become excited by what the place will eventually look like. However, when none of those projects either get started or are fully executed the disconnect between what is and what was supposed to happen, become great and the frustration grows in the cases of those who really bought into the dream.

And so it is my duty to understand what my fixer upper life is supposed to become. So often throughout my life I have considered such a vision and developed outlandish Lee optimistic ideas regarding my capabilities in the future. For example I have considered becoming anything from the President of the United States 2 a captain of industry to a financially secure and independently wealthy philanthropist who travels the world and visits his many houses and villas. At this point none of that is realistic obviously and given my parenting obligations financially and time commitment live over the next several years, as well as my car ins and projected work abilities and earning potential, I think my best shot at quote greatness unquote is to be end up sending middle class citizen who would be considered ordinary buy any outside measure. There is greatness in such a trajectory, however, because to be up sending would mean continually setting the example of what it means to be a good human being. That example would likely be noticed and hopefully in turn alized and ideally followed by my wife and children and close friends. I used to think when I was much younger that I had some extraordinary goodness and power that was on tapped and somehow embedded and hidden within me. Perhaps that is true perhaps, perhaps I have some latent gifts which will be utilized for extraordinary outcomes. But I think the reality is that I actually I am a standard issue, stuck with ADHD, and some bad habits which can be fixed. I do like to dream big and I do like to think big but for me the greatest challenge is simply executing against what I have on my plate right now.

And so I think the best overall approach is to follow through with my 2014 plans and but perhaps spend a little bit of time throughout the given year for years to begin to craft something that would be meaning fall, such as A contribution to my community, A A book or movie that is noteworthy, a business that is sustainable, or some sort of purposeful intersection of West events that highlights good character in value.

In the meantime I think the vision that will guide me for the next two to three years will be the process of fortify my character to a level that is much more honest purpose fall gracious effective supportive loving and fun. return return when it comes to my character I think that's really the potential that we all have pointed to when reflecting on my actions and thoughts. I have some very noble ideas. I can be very gracious supportive and empowering. I can be funny in the face of a great stress. I can be quite loving and touching. But I can be on ethical,. I can be rude and Callas. I can be lazy. I can be arrogance entitled. I can weather quickly in the face of challenges that are ordinary. I can be belligerent. I can be soft on others poor behavior. I can be overly harsh with people and then follow through with setting an improper example almost simultaneously. But the more aware I am of these inconsistencies and gaps and the more I continue to focus on bridging and thoroughly resolving them, the greater the opportunity and likelihood of becoming an upstanding citizen. I think that character measurement assessment is my new baseline.

I think it would be interesting to look for 360 degree assessment tools that would identify agrees to which I have good character and the gaps that I will have hopefully filled. I know two mice future self and note call in it is easy to slide back and lose one's way. I have done that largely due to lack of accountability and direction but nonetheless with significant and negative outcomes several times throughout my life returning to a place of wholesomeness however momentarily or lasting life but still tentatively the important thing as I started this entire post is to continue. To continue. To continue .

Another key thing is too take my daily drill to the next level, as I have noted in other to do list. The daily grill needs to essentially be something a lot more then a single worksheet. I think it needs to be a workbook of several different aspects. Most obviously is the work verses home yes you. Daily grill does not track weekend obligations and activities. It is succinct, and therefore does not track does not track the efficacy of transitions from work to home and back again kama which would be in many ways invaluable. It does not allow for the rest that I need to regenerate my muscles in my mind. It needs to consider other process steps for my workouts, meditation kama relationships kama work projects, career development, home projects, example setting and family journals updating, parenting quality time, marriage quality time, and and the overall prioritization of time for organizing the myriad of aforementioned responsibilities. I think therefore it is several different worksheets with process steps that can be utilized 2 track v participation and accomplishments and optimization ideas on an ongoing basis. I also think that there's something to be said for being easier than all of that. But in lieu of such a technology the Excel approach could really work. return return I think v other thing that would be very useful is too share this approach revealing all of my weaknesses in gap as well as strength with my wife showing her why can be accomplished.

I have a lot of concerns about example that I need to be setting. I see where my daughters could be set up for an easier life if they only had slightly different attitudes about there approaches to getting what they want. I see the way that my wife struggles very much with decisions and obligations that do not affect me to the same degree. I see the way my wife and I are in each resistant to becoming a better team. I see that reflected in the way our family operates. I see these things increasing clarity as the weeks and months pass. And, I have to remind myself that this is a process of improvement which will take a long time and B quickly weekend if there is any departure from that continual process. return return my whole life I have expected to get a pass for no good reason but my thinking was a I am a good guy you know that it's okay that I don't do axe specific thing such as filling out some kind of work form or following through on some kind of tedious but significant task at home. I spent so many years thinking that I could distract and cover up. And the more I look around me with all honest eyes as well as at myself I see the damage and disappointment that that behavior has created. In particular I think I have really distressed my marriage to a point that is alarming. I feel as though my wife have great hopes and me early on and I Dash them. Perhaps those hopes were unrealistic in terms of her potentially whining me too paved the way for her entirely, perhaps not. I have to wonder what her thinking is regarding what she can actually trust in me and how long it will take for her to see improvement in system improvements and therefore replace a new impression a trusting impression with the former impression. It could take another 10 years I should think