Why is it that I always have to be on the winning team? Why is it that when I hit a little speed bump, I lose all hope?
I think it's really all about self esteem and I dont think there's a self-help solution that is going to get me through this roller coaster.
In part, I feel like I am all by myself. I spend a lot of time alone and I dont have many people to share my feelings/ thoughts with. It's like the weight of what I need to accomplish is primarily a reminder of the idea that "I am a no good piece of garbage that needs to be thrown away."
I have indeed made progress in many ways. I am not so bad as to be back at square 1. But the central point is that I am not convinced I understand who I really am and that I can appreciate the value of that, in its own context.
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