The Secret

I was deconstructing The Secret ( http://www.amazon.com/Secret-Rhonda-Byrne/dp/1582701709/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1219064496&sr=8-1 ) and was fast coming to the conclusion that it was very 'external' in nature. That these things ppl were getting, were all from the outside - new car, career, house, etc.

Since my last few posts, I've been very conscious of possessions, and so thinking about The Secret gave me a mixed set of feelings that I can be generating positive vibes, but within a materialistic context.

I keep asking myself - what will i be doing in 10 20 30 years?? I've worked hard to get where I am, but it feels empty.

All last night and this am, I was praying about this and hoping I'd come to some sort of realization about what my goals for the future should be. Then I realized some things:

I am afraid of myself.

I dont treat myself well - mostly b/c of the bs I subscribe to. After conteomplating it, i dont really have anything to be afraid of. I think it's just old habits and old memories that make me think I'm afraid.

Actually as I think of it, I really don't treat myself well at all. Again, here's an opportunity to look at that statement through an enlightenment context. So, if I was going to treat myself well, I'd not create issues for myself by not thinking things through. I'd think them through to the logical conclusion. I'd also find the energy to do nice things for myself that could reap rewards now and in the future.

I'd look at my whole self, my family included, and think about their treatment also. The primary thought fueling all of this would be LOVE and I would create within me and around me a focus on living well, within an enlightenment context.

It's the cool side project I've been looking for, and it's THE gateway to the bigger questions I've been asking about my future.