I'm not 'The Go-to'

We all know that person. The go-to. The One Who Gets Things Done. They're accomplished and can be trusted to following things through

Typically, that's not me. I'm the one who has good ideas about a lot of things. When it comes to 'delivering the goods' however, I fumble or dissapear.

This is the feedback I received at work a few weeks ago (and immediately changed my approach, btw) and this is the feedback I'm receiving at home. I wish I could say (for my own dignity) that this was new to me.

But, (big sigh) it's not.

Why? There are a dozen reasons. I've been insecure. I've been lazy. I've been disconnected from the outcome. I didnt understand. I hoped someone would take care of it. I dodged it completely so I could do something else. I was depressed and immobile. I was unorganized. I didnt think it mattered one way or the other.

Whatever. None of the above is a good excuse or reason for not being the go-to for things that pertain to my job or my family- not to mention my friends, too.

I've been complaining that the world is not a nice place, but I'm essentially not doing a damn thing about my part in this world. If I dont change, it wont either.

In an earlier post, I speculated that this job may be a kind of 'boot camp' for something greater. I was right. It's a bootcamp for being the go-to.