anxiety

I have thought - although not terribly seriously - that I have been avoiding reality with fantasies due to anxiety.

I developed an attraction to hyperfantasizing and then sexual fantasies from very early in life - maybe three years old. That grew into surfing porn almost as soon as I could get online back in 1996 or so.

anyway, i am now thinking about this more seriously because I have speed-watched several episodes of "Obsessed," showing how various ppl have dealt with OCD. As OCD is about coping with anxiety, the therapy largely involves 'exposures' to the sources of that anxiety, whatever it may be.

I am going to be more conscious of things that make me anxious and try to sit with that and be confortable with what is actually happening, vs what I am freaking out about.